Don't worry folks, I'm not trying to turn this place into some smokey coffeehouse ... I just thought I'd share a few pieces of my work for your enjoyment or disdain. Nothing really political, just giving you a glimpse into what I do. Be forewarned, this isn't the poetry you'd expect. No fluff, no madrigral, melodic verse. Just my words and my visions. Enjoy or flame away. Another warning ... this may be long.
Chromatic memory
Colors like the green grass
reflecting off of crystalline sheets
hung out to dry
on a may afternoon
spin spin spin little leaf
as you fly into blue
The wind smelling of asphalt
black like the shadow
that unnerved you as a child
My grandmother’s wall yellow with
smoke and conversation
as her TV hummed
and I lay beside the oil heater
warm and wounded young.
Christmas program playing
smell of cookies
sliding across hardwood floor
purple safety
like a king’s robe.
Grandmother died with no kidneys
her body poisioned
her skin yellow like her walls
and paper like
able to scrape off that parchment
with a pink child’s finger
My mother was a raging shade of red
when she stepped weakly into the cold chapel.
I was fifteen minutes late
and sat in the back
mahogany pew.
I don’t remember crying.
Instead I remembered orange June sunsets
in her porch swing.
I remembered my mother taking a warning shot at her
with a .38 special.
I rememebred fish dinners in a dimly lit dusty kitchen.
I remembered setting my hand on fire while burning her trash.
Indigo winter evenings strolling home
Wondering why she never uttered “I love you.”
Fairly certain i never uttered it either.
She was a lonely woman.
I was a lonely child.
Love need not be involved.
Purple safety.
No cruelty.
Two ages, foreign to each other,
content to share our time
on gaudy orange furntiure,
in warm oil heat ...
Jack Frost festive on the relic TV
eager to find the
rabbit ears wrapped in tin foil.
Assuaging the Fait Accompli
of two lives
passing without an embrace.
We were both fifteen minutes late.
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Note to a Homeless Man, Namur Belgium
I passed you in a dingy
underground walkway that
connected two platforms
in Namur’s main train-station.
I, like most of the crowd,
was in an infernal hurry..
I had just stepped off the
train from Luxembourg City,
and was fixated on my desire to find
somewhere to exchange currency.
You distracted me.
As the herd of busy people
bellowed toward you,
I noticed you stand,
smooth out your dirty suit coat,
and ready the cup you had sitting in front of you.
Old fliers and trash hopped
along the dirty floor
motivated by the displaced air
of a newly arriving train, and
you readied a performance
that no one expected,
or perhaps it was just me.
The line of travelers maintained
their pace, but I slowed as I
noticed you reaching into
a box that sat behind you.
I stopped completely and stared
in wonder as you produced
a common, everyday pigeon.
A few of the less courteous people,
not in short supply in Namur,
bumped into me as I attentively stared.
I quickly noticed that this was
no ordinary pigeon.
You had apparently caught him,
or raised him,
and you had tied a string to one of his legs.
When the line of people reached it’s
greatest depth in front of you,
you sat the pigeon down, and
an infectious smile rolled across
your filthy face.
The show was about to begin.
In triumph, you began tugging the string
around the pigeon’s leg.
This caused the pigeon to
squawk and to half attempt
to fly away.
He would flap and flutter and fly
in little circles and then resign
himself back to the floor,
realizing the futility of his
quest for freedom.
I smiled at your inventiveness,
but the show was not complete.
After the pigeon had performed,
feathers flying, people still filing past,
you would bow and
outstretch one hand toward the pigeon,
like you were presenting an epic
spectacle,
like we had all witnessed some
grand, magical feat.
You would then look into the faces
of the passing travelers with an expression
that said “Huh? Ha Ha! Did you see that?”
Magic.
Still smiling,
I waded back into the crowd
and walked away.
To this day, I still regret not going back,
finding you,
rewarding you.
While in Europe, I walked in the footsteps
of kings and dictators,
Heard the ghostly cries of vast armies.
Stepped in the black blood of world wars.
Marveled as the sun set over Paris.
Sat dining with the eagles in the Alps ...
But I always carried you with me.
I have no way of knowing if you are
still alive,
If your fortunes changed,
but if you are still there in that dirty tunnel
know this ...
You are remembered.
But enough of this sentimentality ...
there is work to be done.
Train 2144-IC is due to arrive
any minute.
Get out there and give the people
what they paid for.
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A Random Act
Hello?
Hey baby.
Where are you?
I’ve been worried sick.
Home?
You mean Baltimore?
How long have you been there?
Seen any of your old friends?
I remember him.
When did he die?
That’s terrible.
We’re OK.
Mom let me borrow twenty.
Don’t worry Walter,
the check is in the mail.
Yes, your children still
love you.
No Walter, it’s just a rash.
No, there is no one here
looking for you.
Yes Walter, your clothes
are still here.
Yes, that stain should come
out.
Walter, are you OK?
I thought you said you were
going to cut back.
Walter, that shit is going to
kill you.
Where did you end up sleeping?
No Walter, he hasn’t come by in months.
We all make mistakes.
I just want you to get well.
Walter, you are not a burden.
Did you go to the clinic?
It’s an abcess?
Did he give you anitbiotics?
Walter, have you eaten lately?
Do you have any money?
We don’t have anything left to sell.
How about your mother?
Is your sister still in town?
Bullshit, they’d be happy to see you.
You sold her television?
Jesus.
Walter, I’m scared.
You don’t sound well.
I know.
You always have it under control.
That is your daughter waking up.
She sleeps at all the wrong times.
She had her birthday party Saturday.
Judith asked about you.
Little Ms. Sleepyhead woke up grumpy.
She misses you too.
Jake’s bus should be here any minute.
No Walter, I won’t tell them.
They know you love them.
I know too.
I just want you to get well and come home.
Good.
Ask strangers for change if you have to.
You have to eat.
I know.
I’ll be waiting.
I love you too.
Bye.
This is one half of a telephone conversation.
I don’t personally know a “Walter”,
but I’m sure there is one out there
who needs to see this a lot
more than I do.
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Lucky Bastard
Somehwere someone is giving birth to a baby girl
somewhere someone is drawing their last breath
somewhere someone is stepping on a thumbtack
somewhere someone is taking their first drink of the evening
somewhere someone is being killed for what they believe
somewhere someone is being killed for what they don’t believe
somewhere someone is becoming a believer
somewhere someone is taking off their clothes
somewhere someone is eating pancakes
somewhere someone is having a nosebleed
somewhere someone is listening to a lion growl
somewhere someone is laughing
somewhere someone is commiting suicide
somewhere someone is waiting on a train
somewhere someone is losing a fist fight
somewhere someone is throwing a snowball
somewhere someone is fucking
somewhere someone is getting fucked
somewhere someone is being mangled in a car crash
somewhere someone is up to no good
somewhere someone is staring at the phone
somewhere someone is taking a walk
somewhere someone is dancing like a fool
somewhere someone is arriving 10 minutes late
somewhere someone is being told they have 6 months to live
somewhere someone is buying a new clock
somewhere someone is changing a tire
somewhere someone is giving up
somewhere someone is holding someone else’s hand
somewhere someone is full of regret
somewhere someone is catching a fish
somewhere someone is falling down
somewhere someone is making a huge mistake
somewhere someone is running for no reason
somewhere someone is going home
somewhere someone is reading Bukowski
somewhere someone is secretly crying
somewhere someone is stealing a bicycle
somewhere someone is begging for god’s ear
somewhere someone is wondering how it came to this
somewhere someone is talking to a stranger on a plane
somewhere someone is studying Latin
somewhere someone is feeding a stray cat
somewhere someone is deciding that enough is enough.
You lucky bastard.
With all of this birthing and dying,
joy and sadness,
frivolity and passion,
injustice and resignation,
theft and murder,
hatred and horrible love,
betrayal and reconciliation,
war and elation,
numbing triviality ...
With all of this going on around you,
spinning around you like an angry cyclone,
threatening to envelop you,
skin you alive;
With all of this right outside
your door,
with all of this sitting right next to you ...
Your only concern for the past few moments
has been to reach
the end
of one,
long,
god awful,
repetitive,
sentence.